Dreams locked away and looking from the outside in. The place you wish for is unattainable. The price is simply too great. The ability to perform to receive the stipend of acceptance and belonging, they simply come from a place without understanding. But I look and I know it is in my mind. I ask how did the idea get there. The feeling that you are taking up too much space in the world, if you speak and hope for an answer, if you want something and it escapes your lips.
The ideas, the feelings, the hurt , you want to just throw them away,and leap into a reality that you can see and feel, as though it were a dream. There is this sense that something bigger than life itself is speaking , but when you take the step and begin to walk into the dream, all the fear comes flying at you, the attack, the forces that want you to stop, then laugh at the idea that your feelings are a voice, that has a gentle place in the world. The idea that you can see your self as more than waiting in the wings. The idea that people will want you, for nothing more than who you are, not some bejeweled offering of greatness, not a piece of paper, not the works that someone else chooses for you to be great…………. but for your soul; its light, standing there, hoping to shine bringing its intensity and love to the world.
If only the fear were not so great, so great that you could not step, leave, move, in the very direction of the dream that holds your heart. Can you hear the world, not the people, but the power, forces energies and love calling you out? Can you hear? They are not calling for "greatness", but simply for your life, your love, and your existence to join the forces of love. To grow the integrity of love and the freedom that we are all yearning for.
You can choose to allow your heart to feel, the love, the sadness, the grief, the injustice, and then be moved………… calling the rest of you, giving your mind the direction to go. Hear and take heed, then allow that mind direct you to unlock the doors. Be wise with your heart and allow it to take its proper place, feel deeply, whether for happiness or sadness, they are friends, speaking of your needs. Their purpose is to call out the rest of your strengths, to create your life.
Emotions are invitations, not a moment of panic or pleasure, but something that needs tending, planning and directing. Every day there needs to be hope, hope for the freedom from the oppression of fear and disbelief. Every day their needs to be hope, that you will be heard. Some days you are tired, but do not mistake depression for fatigue and the need to rest, carefully hear the sadness and find the place it is moving you towards, the place behind the fear. Believe the message it is speaking. You can talk yourself out of the message, but it will come back louder and louder. So just listen to it without fear or judgment When you listen, you find the love you have been yearning for, not in another person, in yourself. Love yourself, no matter what shape or size, no matter how accomplished you wish to be, no matter how afraid, just start with love today, there is lots to love. The universe is filled with love and it filled you with its love.
Now go, open that package and find out what is inside.
